Below are the 15 most recent journal entries recorded in Ambrlina's LiveJournal:

Saturday, March 25th, 2006
3:00 pm	Chloe' Kitty For those of you who don’t know, Friday, March 17th our kitty Chloe’ was diagnosed with cancer. Little Chloe’ had been lethargic, and bloated for about a week before we realized she was ill. She had a seizure on Wednesday prompting us to make an appointment with a veterinarian. Our vet diagnosed a large mass in her lung, which was putting pressure on her heart. Our vet immediately sent us to cardiology at Colorado State University for further testing. Cardiology said her condition was out of their expertise and we would need to make an appointment with oncology. The following Tuesday we took our beloved Chloe’ to CSU oncology to see if the mass could be removed. We found out at that time she had another tumor in her stomach confirming the tumor was malignant. We did not want to prolong her pain any longer than necessary. We declined the option for surgery and chemotherapy because there was no guarantee she would recover. It was also likely the cancer would return because it was detected throughout her body. Had CSU removed the cancer little Chloe’s life expectancy would only be two more years. We knew we had to let her go. We requested the vet drain the fluid from her tummy, which is called a tummy tap, relieving some pressure. We took our precious kitty home and cherished the days following. Chloe’ seemed so full of life up until Saturday. Chris and I said our final good-byes to our precious kitty Chloe’ on Saturday, March 25, 2006 at approximately 2:15 p.m. at the CSU Veterinarian Hospital. Chloe’ had a stroke Saturday morning paralyzing the left side of her body which caused her body to contort spastically. She lost all control of her left front leg resulting in excruciating pain. Her cries were indication that she was ready to sleep and feel pain no more. We will miss her deeply and already sense we lost a part of ourselves. Our cherished kitty died in our arms making it so hard to let her go. We love you Chloe’ and will miss you forever. We plan to have our kitty cremated this week; then we will bring her ashes home to rest. Chloe’ Ann Fluke May 27, 1993 - March 25, 2006 (Comment on this)
Wednesday, August 10th, 2005
11:47 pm	Dark Chocolate M&M’s The highlight of my day was going to the discount food store and buying a case of Dark Chocolate M&M’s for less than ten bux. I now have an eight-pound collection of Dark Chocolate M&M’s. I think I may have issues. I was at work tonight until 7:15 p.m. because I procrastinate doing the LUCMM’s these MM’s have do not sweet yummy-ness associated with them. It’s not like I wasn’t totally busy or that I do not stay extremely busy at work I just do everything else but the LUCMM’s. I know they are due every second Wednesday of every month and yet I wait until there is no time left on the clock. If you google search my name you could find out what I am talking about. It is assignments such as these that make me miss working in human resources. Well, I should change my sheets and get ready for bed. I have to finish reviewing the micro-cassettes tomorrow to turn in my minutes. How often does one change their sheets? I try to change our sheets at least once every two weeks. Is that gross? I think this time we went three weeks because we were both too lazy to do it. I know it has to be done tonight because I am totally breaking out. I look like a walking zit. I just feel icky… I do have something to look forward to tomorrow. I’m going to read my sister’s story she sent me. Thanks doll! Current Mood: thirsty Current Music: Soft Cell - Sex Dwarf (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Tuesday, August 9th, 2005
11:58 pm	Insomniac? I cannot sleep! I’ve been surfing the internet for about two-hours and working on shit I should have finished at work today. I’ve responded to emails and updated my calendar for the next month (freak I know). What is wrong with me? Maybe I’ll go feed my face. I’ve got too much on my mind!!! Things are super complicated right now. That could be why I had a panic attack at work today. I'm so freaking good at pretending that things are all right. At least I had a fun tonight hanging with my sis and an old friend from P-Town that flew into DIA. He had a four-hour lay over and luckily called me to hang out. We went to dinner and chatted for a few hours. I need to get my ass to bed - I've gotta get up in six hours! I'm such a wuss if I don't get at least seven hours of sleep and yet it seems that I average more like five per night. Maybe I just need to go dancing! I really want to go dancing but I can never muster the energy involved. Sometimes it is more of a hassle than it’s worth. Old biddy! Current Mood: anxious Current Music: Ministry - Stigmata (6 Comments |Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 30th, 2005
12:40 am	Second Entry I dreamt we bought a new house, not the house we are currently living in but another one. I bumped my head pretty severe walking into the master bedroom. As a result I was really light headed in my dream and my mother-in-law had to try to keep me from fainting. She decided I was in pretty bad shape and decided to take me to the Emergency Room. On the way to the hospital I got extremely frustrated and angry and got out of the car while it was stopped at a red light. I began walking down a very dark road and that’s where my dream ended. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 29th, 2005
12:34 am	Dream Journal first entry Okay, so I promised a friend I would journal my dreams. I wrote down this morning that I dreamt that my current car was a Honda Element (Elephant) and they recalled the steering wheels. It was a purple elephant. I honestly do not like these vehicles, but whatever. (Comment on this)
Saturday, June 21st, 2003
4:29 pm	Fake People Suck! I'm to the point where I would like to remove the toxic people from my life. I've experienced this artificial sincere bullshit before. Sometimes I’m amazed how “some people” are such chameleons. Stop faking it… nobody will ever know the “real” you because you don’t know yourself. Last night I attended a party where I seemed to be surrounded by toxic chameleons. Stop dressing the part – quit acting like those around you & get a life of your own. Current Mood: nauseated Current Music: Pixies - Trompe Le Monde (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, June 15th, 2003
12:49 am	I need to get a life! 1. Nirvana – I HATE HATE HATE HATE NIRVANA 2. Sublime- I HATE HATE HATE HATE Sublime 3. Depeche Mode – I love Depeche Mode! 4. Linkin Park – whatever 5. No Doubt – I go back & forth – love & hate 6. Rage Against the Machine- BORING 7. U2 – getting old 8. Green Day – freaking love them 9. Beastie Boys – getting old 10. Red Hot Chili Peppers – Mother’s Milk was their best 11. Blink-182 – I like cheshire cat & dude ranch everything else SUCKS 12. System of a Down - they suck ass 13. The Smashing Pumpkins – not bad 14. Korn – dig it 15. Bob Marley- can’t stand the rasta man 16. Metallica – freaking boring 17. The Offspring – NOT BAD 18. The Cure – ABSOLUETLY THE BEST BAND ON THIS PLANET!!! 19. Incubus – Hate them 20. Stone Temple Pilots – Hell yes 21. Pearl Jam - Whatever 22. Tool - Talented 23. Radiohead - Boring 24. 311 - Boring 25. Nine Inch Nails- Trent Rocks 26. Weezer – Not at all 27. Social Distortion – MIKE NESS IS A GOD 28. The Smiths/Morrissey – FREAKING LOVE THEM! And Morrissey 29. Jane's Addiction – HELL YES THEY KICK ASS 30. Oingo Boingo – Extemely Good Stuff 31. Alice In Chains – Good stuff 32. Limp Bizkit - that bald, short tempered motherfucker should DIE 33. The Clash – Pioneers! They freaking rock! 34. Dave Matthews Band – ONCE AGAIN BORED 35. Creed- VERY BORING 36. The Ramones – Hell Ya – they kick ass 37. Staind - Boring 38. R.E.M. - YES 39. Bush – Gavin is hot but that’s it – the music sucks 40. Bad Religion - Not bad 41. Foo Fighters - Dave Grohl is so much better than Kirk Cobain 42. New Order – freaking love them 43. Soundgarden - talented 44. Garbage - Shirley Manson is HOTT! 45. Pennywise – not bad 46. Violent Femmes – Freaking love them 47. Rob Zombie/White Zombie – Not bad 48. David Bowie – He is a GOD! 49. Godsmack - Whatever 50. Duran Duran – Good Stuff 51. P.O.D. - Whatever 52. Coldplay – Very Talented 53. Beck – Not Bad 54. Eminem – Not Awful 55. Deftones - Whatever 56. Cypress Hill- Good Stuff 57. Oasis – Good stuff 58. Jimmy Eat World – Pretty Good 59. Tori Amos – Extremely Talented 60. Moby - Boring 61. The Pixies – FREAKING LOVE THEM 62. Blondie – Getting Old 63. Live – Like them 64. Hole – Freaking Whore – Like she said 65. Rancid – Freaking Love them 66. Fatboy Slim - Boring 67. Siouxsie and the Banshees – Freaking love them!!! 68. Marilyn Manson – Used to hate him but I’m starting to dig it 69. Save Ferris- I love Monique 70. The Sex Pistols – Freaking Love them 71. Disturbed - Whatever 72. Billy Idol – Love him 73. The Strokes – Like them 74. The Police - Okay 75. Primus – Les kicks ass 76. The Go-Go's- Love them 77. Everclear – Good sound – I don’t care what people say! 78. Bjork – Extremely Talented 79. Dramarama – Not Sure 80. Prodigy – Like them 81. The Cult – Love them 82. Cake – Ok 83. MxPx – Love them – bunny punk as they may be 84. Third Eye Blind - Whatever 85. Sum 41 - Whatever 86. Travis – Not sure 87. Papa Roach – Hate them 88. Devo – All right 89. A Perfect Circle- Not bad 90. New Found Glory - Whatever 91. The Cranberries – Excellent sound 92. Lit – All right 93. The B-52's – Love them 94. Puddle of Mudd - Whatever 95. Blur- Love them absolutely love them 96. Unwritten Law – All right 97. Pet Shop Boys – Love them 98. Hoobastank – Hate them 99. X/xibit – Not sure 100. Lenny Kravitz - Whatever 101. Adema - Unsure 102. Echo & the Bunnymen – Love them 103. Kid Rock - Whatever! – Can’t stand 104. INXS – Kick ass! 105. Everlast/House of Pain – Not bad 106. Faith No More – I love Mike Patton – Mr. Bungle 107. Ozzy Osbourne – He is the KING 108. Mindless Self Indulgence – Not sure 109. Pantera – Not in to it 110. Pat Benetar – Good Stuff 111. GWAR – Dig the costumes – music aight 112. KMFDM – Freaking Kick Ass (gotta love this band) 113. Jesus & Mary Chain – Freaking Rock My World 114. Love & Rockets – Freaking Love them 115. Alkaline Trio – Good Stuff 116. Peter Murphy – Rocks My World 117. Flogging Molly – Good stuff 118. The Faint – Freaking Rocks My World!!! 119. Smoking Popes – Absolutely Love them 120. Skinny Puppy – They freaking rock 121. Ministry – Awesome 122. Assemblage 23 – Freaking Rock 123. Delirium – Rock 124. Dead Milkmen – Love them 125. Soft Cell – Sex Dwarf all the way 126. Front 242 – Freaking rock 127. Mighty Mighty Bosstones – Love them 128. OMD Orchestral Maneuvers in the Dark – Love them 129. Operation Ivy – Freaking Kick ass 130. Nitzer Ebb – Freakin Rock 131. Misfits - Awesome 132. Joy Division – Kick Ass 116-132 were added by ambrlina (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Thursday, March 27th, 2003
12:14 pm	Trying to help! TRYING TO HELP By Dennis Miller All the rhetoric on whether or not we should go to war against Iraq has got my insane little brain spinning like a roulette wheel. I enjoy reading opinions from both sides, but I have detected a hint of confusion from some of you. As I was reading the paper recently, I was reminded of the best advice someone ever gave me. He told me about the KISS method ("Keep it Simple, Stupid"). So, with this as a theme, I'd like to apply this theory for those who don't quite get it. My hope is that we can simplify things a bit and recognize a few important facts. Here are 8 things to consider when voicing an opinion on this important issue: 1) President Bush and Saddam Hussein.....Hussein is the bad guy. 2) If you have faith in the United Nations to do the right thing, keep this in mind; they have Libya heading the Committee on Human Rights and Iraq heading the Global Disarmament Committee. Do your own math here. 3) If you use Google Search and type in "French Military Victories," your reply will be "Did you mean French Military Defeats?" 4) If your only anti-war slogan is "No war for oil," sue your school district for allowing you to slip through the cracks and robbing you of the education you deserve. If that was our objective, why didn't we keep the oil in 1991..?? 5) Saddam and Bin Laden will not seek United Nations approval before they try to kill us. 6) Despite what some seem to believe, Martin Sheen is NOT the President. He just plays one on TV. 7) Even if you are anti-war, you are still an "Infidel" and Bin Laden wants you dead, too. 8) Whether you are for military action, or against it, our young men and women overseas are fighting for us to defend our right to speak out. We all need to support them without reservation. I hope this helps. (3 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, January 20th, 2003
4:03 pm	Do you ever have that not so fresh feeling? My head hurts.... I'll live. Must do homework now - brain feels fried. Hmmm Fried Chicken from KFC? That sounds yummy.... Current Mood: annoyed (2 Comments |Comment on this)
Sunday, January 19th, 2003
2:38 pm	Well, here it is 2003. Not bad so far... Still, I miss my wonderful friend Sherry. She is lonely in Germany. I'm glad I have my sisters - they are so cool. Even if they are a pain my ass at times... I don't know what I would do without them. Taking another class- time consuming. Better get back to homework. I really need to update this thing more often. Current Mood: blah Current Music: The Cure (Comment on this)
Thursday, December 12th, 2002
8:05 am	I HATE TECHNO Which Dysfunctional Care Bear Are You? brought to you by Quizilla (Comment on this)
Monday, December 2nd, 2002
9:49 am	Which Trainspotting Character Are You? (Comment on this)
9:41 am	Which Blue's Clues character are you? (Comment on this)
Tuesday, November 19th, 2002
3:43 pm	I know I should write more in my journal. I just feel like I’ve been too busy to keep up. Everyone has such profound things to say and I really don’t have much. I’ve been super stressed out because of this wedding I’m going to. I just hope I we have a good time and my friend enjoys her day. Still, I can’t help but worry – I know I’m way too paranoid. I’ve been so depressed this past month. My wonderful friend Sherry is leaving for Germany soon. She’s first going to Arizona to see her family and then she’s off to Germany to live her life with her man. I am so very happy for her but at the same time I know I’m being selfish because I don’t want her to go. I am going to miss her dearly, I don’t know if she understands how much her friendship means to me. It’s weird – I think I have friends but then when I look at my life I realize I only have my husband and family. Sherry was different, we could talk about everything and not worry about being ridiculed or judged. My family, they are wonderful and they listen but it was refreshing to have an outside point of view. I tell my husband everything, except those things that only girls need to talk about. I usually tell him after I’ve talked to Sherry, it’s hard to explain. I’m going to miss her!!! Current Mood: sad (4 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, November 4th, 2002
8:34 am	First Entry Well, this is my first ever journal entry. This should be interesting. I still don’t know how I got here… Actually, I’ve been interested in starting a journal for a long time. I guess we’ll have to see where this goes. Today is going to be a hectic day. I still have to finish my homework for school tonight. I am not looking forward to writing two essays and preparing two presentations. Oh, well – it’s my own fault. I’ve had plenty of time to get my work done. I just procrastinate too much. Tomorrow night I have to go to dinner with the vice president of our department. I think that’s kind of stressing me out – why would I want to go to dinner with this man? I guess it’s a department thing. It should be interesting. More later… Current Mood: anxious (8 Comments |Comment on this)